“The hardest thing is watching somebody you love forget they love you”…
Good Friday services have a way of giving you perspective. As I stood in church reflecting on the final hours of Christ, I couldn’t help but reminiscence on all those services I attended with my mother as a child. She was always so well prepared for the day, prayer books, enough water, snacks and even a big towel so we wouldn’t get too cold sitting on the marble floor! I would have asked her countless times when the service would end, and now my children ask me the same! Life does indeed come full circle when you become a parent🙂
And, it’s about time I addressed the elephant in the room! My mother has been suffering from dementia for quite some time now and it’s been hard. Especially the past couple of years with me being so far away from her. The guilt tripping is real and constant. And the pandemic didn’t help one bit either.
Sometimes, in my lowest moments, I do question Him. Why? Why do you have to take my mother too, that too in this painful manner? But at the end, sanity does prevail. I have been blessed with strong women in the family and for that, I am forever grateful. This dreadful disease might try and take my mother from me eventually, but it cannot take away all the love we share. For my heart is but full of love for her and I know hers is too…
